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The collision of Christ and my life has produced stories that I could never keep to myself. This blog wanders through those stories and the impact they have on my soul.

Just the Facts Jack

Some friends and I are going through the book of Mark together and one of the most interesting things to me is the style that Mark tells his story about Jesus.

There’s nothing creative about it. In fact it’s not even eloquent. Mark runs quickly through miracle after miracle straight into the crucifixion without weaving even the slightest bit of metaphor through his story.

It goes a little like this. Step one - Jesus performs a miracle. Step two – the disciples do or say something stupid. Step three – repeat. That cycle continues for the whole book which makes me feel a little bit better about my own hardheadedness.

Anyway, I guess you could say that there is not much use in studying this gospel if you are searching for the deep waters of Biblical theology but the simplicity of reminder is something not to be missed.
What I mean is, sometimes even though you were there, you forget what happened. We need to be reminded occasionally as to not to forget what does not need to be forgotten.

Recently I have had a funk chasing me and I am just getting tired of being me. But after reading through Mark, I think I just need to remind myself of why I am here and would like to share a part of that with you.

- The Lord was always a part of my home growing up but I always kept Him at arms length, more interested in myself. Despite that, I saw His hand for the first time in college.

- Once, my car died for real and I needed to replace the long block in the engine which was going to be a couple thou and I literally had $20 to my name. All of a sudden, an old employer popped up and asked me if I would work for them over the summer. They offered me $10 hour cash, paid for my car repairs on their personal credit card and let me work off the debt. On top of that, they gave me their car to drive while the repairs were getting done.

- Apparently the education system in Texas frowns on you taking out financial aid for 6 years of college and will eventually cut you off. I found that out the hard way and one semester was faced with having to drop out of school with now way to pay. A friend’s family called and wanted to pay the bill no questions asked. They even took me to New York on vacation to celebrate.

- At the tail end of school, I worked on a contract basis for a company called Women of Faith during but never considered working there full time. A few years later, I was juggling 2 jobs to try to make ends meet and needed help. I called a friend on staff at WoF to see if she had any job leads in other companies. That friend I called told me how glad that she was that I called because she was moving and they needed somebody to start in 2 weeks. She was looking for my cell phone number that very moment I called. I had not talked to that girl in almost a year. That job has now affected almost every area of my life.

- I had a friend that wasn’t a Christian and pretty much violently opposed to hearing anything about it. So we never talked about my faith, but about a year into our friendship out of the blue God hijacked my prayer life. I could not pray about anything else and my friend’s soul lay heavy on my heart. So I prayed. The next week she asked me if she could go to church with me – she started asking if she could come to my home group – I gave her a Bible and she read the Old Testament in 1 week – on and on. That girl is a Christian today and her life is completely different, out of nowhere.

Just the facts jack. There are so many more but here are just a few examples of miracle after miracle that God has done in my life. Did you know God is real? My funk may still be chasing me but the simplicity of reminder prompts me to look beyond tomorrow. Be encouraged by your past and take the time to write down your own Mark story. You never know when you might need it to pull you out of the pit.

Read: Psalm 139
Ask: This Psalm was written by David who was named by God, “a man after my own heart”. (Acts 13:22) Despite that call on his life, David lusted after a married woman and had her husband killed so he could be with her. There are some of you who are not encouraged by your past but are shamed by it. How do David’s words in this Psalm make you feel about your past knowing David’s past?

Read: Mark 6:30-44, 8:1-21
Ask: The disciples saw amazing things happen in their time with Jesus but they still seem to doubt his power when faced with trouble. Even when the situation seems exactly the same as in the passages above. How do you react when impossible situations emerge in your life?

Read: Jeremiah 29:11-14
Ask: God reminds us of His ultimate goal for our lives in this passage. Can you see the truth of this scripture in some difficult times in your own life?





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Surprise - It's Just Not About You!

I was in Anaheim,CA for a Women of Faith event this weekend and overheard several comments that got me thinking.

“I hope I am able to expend every bit of energy I have for the things I believe in.”

That was how one of our special guests, Nicole C. Mullen, responded to a journalist who asked her if she ever got tired of how much she traveled on top of having a family.

“What should have been a devastating tragedy in my life has put me in a position to lead an amazing prison ministry and more than anything this tragedy makes me lean on my God because I have nothing left personally to give.”

Carol Kent, whose son is prison for 1st degree murder with no possibility of parole, now co-leads a prison ministry with her son. She was talking to a journalist about the beauty of a broken spirit.

“I’m afraid to marry a woman from the states. They want to get married for themselves, for their own pleasure - not because they want to raise a family. Americans are beautiful people but they are never happy because they are so self-indulgent.”

This last comment is from my Iranian cab driver on the way to the airport. He was talking about how he has lived all over the world and loves to hate Americans because it is frustrating to watch them be so close to happiness and still manage to keep themselves from it.

All of these comments basically reminded me about how life is just not about us but we still struggle to try and make it that way anyway.

Maybe that is why so many of us get divorced. We get married to fill that hole in ourselves with a person but in the end that never works because there is nothing fulfilling about pursuing your own pleasures. Essentially, we just keep one upping ourselves and needing a better toy or relationship to fill our void.

For example, I have a friend that is always putting himself in debt to get another four wheeler, jet ski, boat, house and the list goes on and on because he is bored with his life. I always say that he is just entertaining his eyes until he dies. People! We were meant for something greater than this.

Living your life for your own pleasure will eventually get you to the end of yourself and it is a shorter trip than you think. I was glad for the reminder that life is not about me – especially because I am Christian.

Read: Ephesians 1:11-14
Ask: Salvation is often talked about as a very personal event but is it possible we are not the main for God’s work of salvation? What does this scripture indicate is the final goal of salvation?

Read: Philippians 1:12-26
Ask: As Paul wrote this, he was being imprisoned for preaching the gospel. How would you react in the same situation?

Read: Galatians 6:7-10


Ask: This verse talks about pleasing our own sinful nature and how that leads to destruction. Can you think of a time where that statement was true for you? What does the verse say about our opportunities?





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My Heart’s Desires at Arms Length

Life is molded by different things for different people. Mine is molded by my interactions with others. People make up my motivation for everything from work to my spare time. Which makes a conversation I recently had all that more confusing.

“I know the superficial stuff about you but I don’t really know you. Will you just let me get to know you?” This was said to me by a guy I’ve known for 14 years. That affected me on several of different levels.

- It’s been a while since the last time anybody asked that of me.
- I can never think of a time that a significant other asked that of me.
- How could my love for people get lost enough for a friend of 14 years not to know me?

Celebrate Recovery has helped me immensely but the best influence it has had is my new found ability to see my own contribution to a situation. In almost every situation that frustrates you, except abuse, you have contributed in some way to the undesirable outcome.

I can hear you screaming now – Not true! So and so is an absolute jerk and I did nothing! Is it possible you are so offended or hurt that you can’t rationally asses that? I digress…

Anyway, it would be easy to say woe is me, nobody understands me or loves me like they should, but CR won’t let me get away with that anymore.

So, how can a person I have been friends with for 14 years know me but not know me. If I was honest about it, I would say that I don’t let people get close enough to help me. Asking for help means that you are dependent on another person and on top of that you have to be vulnerable enough to admit that you don’t know it all. I’m not good at that, so I get close enough to people to help them but not let them help me.

It even comes out in small things. Right now one of my tires needs air and I have this weird fear of putting air in my tires. A visual of me putting too much air in the tire and getting blown to smithereens pops into my head every time and I chicken out. Easy to fix right? Just ask for help. It’s been low for a month now.

"Hello, my name is Nichole and I live on a self imposed island of isolation."

The worst part of all that is that my island is not biblical. All through the New Testament it talks about the first church and the benefits of living in true community.

One of my heart’s desires is to have a good group of friends that I can live life with (mostly dudes as I am up to eyeballs in godly women at work) and have been really frustrated at my ability to find them. Here comes my contribution.

I think I have held my desire away from me at arm’s length because of my inability to be vulnerable. The problem is not that I can’t ask somebody to air up my tire, but the problem is the attitude that would keep me from asking for help with my tire. Nobody is looking for one sided friendships. I am afraid it is infected more of my life than I thought. In case you would disagree with me, talk to my friend of 14 years.

How funny that the path to my heart’s desire starts with a tire. The first step is admitting you have a problem right? So….can somebody help me air up my tire?

Read: Luke 15:11-23
Ask/Journal: Can you think of a time where swallowing your pride lead to a surprising outcome? Can you think of a situation that you are currently that you need to swallow your pride about?

Read: 1 Corinthians 12:12-31
Ask/ Journal: In reading this passage, can you see how God designed our world and relationships to be interdependent? Is there a person in your life that does something for you that you can not? Are you that person for somebody else?

Read: Romans 12:4-8
Ask/Journal: Do you think striving to do it all yourself helps or hurts God’s plan to help other discover their passions?

"The capacity to express vulnerability is a great human strength. We sometimes wish our vulnerabilities would disappear so we wouldn’t have to worry about hiding them. Without these pesky vulnerabilities, we could convince the world that we have it all together, that we have no unsatisfied needs that we can care constantly for others and never need care ourselves.

It is hard to let people see our vulnerable parts — our fears and insecurities, our sadness and shame. To express vulnerability requires courage. Only in exercising this courage, in bravely showing our 'weakness' to another, do we achieve a form of real power — the power to ask for help when needed." - Sarah Parsons, A Clearing Season







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